One Month Later.

Hey Blog World.
So if you have been keeping up with my posts, you may have taken note that i have been home for a month now. And maybe you're wondering, hows home? do you miss school? are you going back? what have you done in a month? is it still an annoying place? Well... I can answer most of those questions, or at least i can try.
Home is and will always be my favorite place on Earth, however NO ONE should stay at home forever. I love it here, but I don't love being here 24/7. I feel like i have no freedom when I'm home and freedom is something all young people should embrace. We need to live and learn, make mistakes and succeed on our own. Thats extremely hard to do when you're stuck at home most days of the week, hanging out on a laptop. And of course i miss school. Not just being in school and taking classes, but i miss my friends, the campus, Charlotte in general. I can't go to Concord Mills here. I can't get Bojangles. I can't ride around in paco and take random weekend trips to Lexington. I can't just lay down if i don't want to do anything. I cant even schedule my own day. Everything depends on everyone else. Its extremely hard to go from asking to do everything, to being your own person and doing whatever you want, then back to asking to do everything. I am 100% looking forward to this fall. I cannot wait to be back there. However, more not so swell news. I am not one of those kids whose parents can just pay for everything. I need financial aid and a crap ton of loans if i want to get back there. On top of that... all of this money has to be in by August 18th. I have no idea how this is going to work. My biggest fear is not being able to go back to school. I love home and everyone here so much, but I know that North Carolina is where I need to be if i ever want to have a career and grow into an adult.
Conflicting and stressful feelings aside... this month has been alright. I've gotten to go out with my friends just about every night. However that in itself has been annoying. Not hanging out with my friends, just the process of making plans and someone always claiming to not care and then make a big deal of things and make everyone else annoyed or angry. No names will be named but if you know who i am and youre reading this your most likely know who and what things im talking about. Aside from friends, ive gotten to hang out with my sister a lot, and my brother Jimmy graduated! I start work back at my old job Friday, so i'll be making some money to save for the fall. And thats basically my month in a nutshell.
I think i answered all of the hypothetical questions i created, but if youre reading this and you have any more, PLEASE ask in a comment. I like to know people have read this and I also like to know what people think. I suppose I should go search the net for scholarships and loans now. Until next post America!

<33
Amber.

In My Life

So I know I just wrote a post yesterday, but it got sloppy and off topic towards the end, my apologies. I have been sitting in my room, on my bed since 2pm listening to In My Life by The Beatles. I think it is safe to say, I'm completely and utterly in love with this song. The way it sounds, their voices, the mood, and mainly the lyrics. It's just so easy to relate to and I don't know, I just can't stop listening to it. If you have never heard this song, it's in my playlist on this website. I highly recommend listening to it at least once. And if you have heard it, would you agree with me about its beauty? It just makes me think of all memories and friends from the past and kind of appreciate all the things I've done even though I've only been on this earth for 19 short years. I've had the pleasure of meeting so many different people, some that I've grown to love... others that I could be content with never seeing again. I've been to like half or more than half of the Untied States, most of which when I was younger and this really helped to me get an understanding of people outside of just my home. I don't know, I am just thankful for every memory I have with every person/place/thing I have one with, good or bad. I guess this song just kind of helps me appreciate life for what it is. And of course... here are the lyrics:
There are places I remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places had their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
In my life I love you more

So there they are, please take a listen and let me know if it has any sort of the same effect on you... or what kind effect if any it has that may be different.
As always, thanks for reading my thoughts :]

<333
Amber

Fool, you trippin.

As I write this, only 10 days separate me from returning home. Now i know if you have read previous blog posts, home didn't seem to be the happiest place on earth, but its still home and i love it with all of my heart. I miss my family and friends oh so much and I cannot wait to be reunited!
I haven't technically started finals yet. I had my last math test monday but since it was an 0900 class we got to take our final early in case we failed and needed to take it on the real final day. Thankfully i passed that.
On friday I have both my intro to education final, and my western culture final. Then on monday [5/10] i have my Music: Arts and Society final, and on thursday [5/13] i have my English final then I move out that friday[5/14] and head home that saturday[5/15]!
I am so excited, but at the same time, now i am going to be missing other friends too. I have met some really great people here and ima miss them like crazy! i have definitely made some besties here. :]
But they're here right now sooo i'll right more next week.

Kbye!
<3 Amber

Spring Break 2010

Hello World!
Its 2:28am right now and yet I felt compelled to write a blog for you lovely people that read this!
This week was my spring break. I didn't go to some exotic island. I didn't got to vegas, or atlantic city. I didn't go home. In fact I stayed right here at my school. However, a piece of home came to me. :]
My sister flew from Maine to North Carolina last sunday, just to come hang out with boring old me! I spent most of last friday and saturday cleaning up my room and doing laundry, so my room would be presentable... [not that it wasnt but i mean there was going to be more than one person living here now]. I got a text at about 11:30am sunday morning from Lizzy saying she had just gotten into the taxi and was on her way here! I was sooo excited! Once she was pulling into campus i had her give me a call so that I could meet her down there and help her with her luggage. However when I got down there she only had like one thing, [idk its not a briefcase lol but the case of luggage?]
That day we just pretty much chilled here. The next day we went to get lunch and she got some picture of campus, and we took a trip to good ol' wally world. It was fun to be able to shop normally. I always went on random trips to wal-mart or the grocery store with Lizzy before I came here so it felt reallllly good being able to do that again. On the way back from Wal-Mart our taxi driver dropped us off like a billion feet away from my dorm because he went in the back way and it was closed... so we walked carrying bags and a 24 pack of Aquafina at least a mile... and it waas mainly uphill, lol it sucked. But we did it, and thank goodness it was nice out or else that walk would have reealllyyyy sucked a lot lol.
Then wednesday we went out again because it was a lovely 70 degrees outside! We walked around campus a little more and she got more photos and so did I, and we also did some shopping at the bookstore and watched a movie in the campus theater. It was a very fun and productive day! :]
The next day it was crap weather and we just chilled in my room... lol it was definitely a lazy day but it was a good one! I love being able to do nothing but still have fun you know?
Thursday we did go out, even thought it was raining a little bit... we went to go see Planet 51 at the campus theater... it was a cute movie. Then again we came here and just kicked it. :]
Today I slept in late. Lol, Lizzy got up at like 10am but she didnt wake me, so we didnt do anything until about 3pm-ish. She wanted to get something for my mom and dad so we walked back to the bookstore and she picked out their gifts and I got some gifts too. I got Jimmy a nalgene bottle that days 49ers on it, and its spill proof. And i got my dad a Bobby Flay cookbook, because thats his fav chef. I also got myself the book Push. It is the book that the movie Precious is made after. Then once we got back here, lizzy started packing. Its weird because it feels like the whole week went by just as fast as I typed it.
Right now Lizzy is sleeping, or trying to... I have to wake her up in 9 minutes so she can get all of her things together and double check everything then head to the airport... This week was so much fun and its like a tease of what i'm missing at home. I miss being able to just kick it with my sister, even if it means watching American Idol [a show which i do not like]. I'm going to be really sad watching her taxi drive off but I know it'll be all set because its already march... may will come in no time. Ill get to see both her and my dad, and then once i get home I'll get to see my mom and jimmy too! [and of course all of my besties!] I miss everyone at home so much, but i know being here is good for me.
This week may not have been very eventful, but it was the best week i've had here.
I love my sister so much!!! I hope she had as good of a time as i did. :]

-Amberrrrr