-Clarice Precious Jones.
You ever think that its weird how sometimes it takes a movie made in Hollywood for us to just stop and think and look at whats happening in the world?
Tonight I watched the movie Precious. I knew when I saw the trailer for it, that it would hit something inside me that I just couldn't explain. This movie made me laugh, think, cry, angry, and depressed... but I absolutely loved it. Apart from the wonderful acting, (and I really mean wonderful, I never thought I could hate Mo'Nique but I really wanted to hit her because she played the mother so well), I know that there are girls out there everywhere who are going through or have gone through or who haven't made it through everything Precious goes through in this movie. Actually I'm pretty positive that there are people who could have gone through even worse situations. That really just breaks my heart. I can't think of one person who deserves to be beaten, raped, told they are dumb and incapable of learning, blamed for getting raped and made to feel bad about it. I don't even know if that last sentence made sense, but just those things mentioned no one should have to go through... NO ONE!
Even apart from the physical things people are put through, this movie brings up an other huge issue that everyday people deal with, self image. At one point Precious says she wished she was light skinned with long hair and really skinny... her teacher tells her thats not real beauty and that she is beautiful... and eventually she believes it. But theres and other part where she is doing her hair in the mirror and she see herself as the super skinny light skinned girl with long hair. At that point in the movie I just wanted to give her a huge hug! A few scenes later and guy calls her "orca" and then she gets pushed onto the ground. Theres an other scene where she writes the letter F on the black board and an other girls says "F for FAT". Precious smacks her in the side of the head, (which I totally think the girl deserved... thats just plain rude)!
Anyway the point to the self image rant is just how it makes me think about all the people who go through that, the fact that I deal with that myself. I know I am not at a healthy weight for myself and that I am out of shape. I also know my teeth are perfectly strait and that yes, my hair is kinda frizzy... but you know what... when it comes down to it I'm 100% okay with who I am. I have beauty that is deeper than that, even if that sounds super corny. I am funny, I care for ever single person I meet, and I am intelligent and in my book that makes me beautiful. :] Also I'm currently listening to Mirror by BarlowGirl on repeat right now and I'm going to share the lyrics with you:
Mirror mirror on the wall, have I got it?
'Cause mirror you've always told me..
Who I am. I'm finding it's not easy
To be perfect
So sorry, you won't define me
Sorry, you don't own me
Who are you to tell me that I am less than what I should be?!
Who are you?
Who are you?
Yeah, yeah
I don't need to listen to the list of things I should do
I won't try. No no no, I won't try
Mirror I am seeing a new reflection
I'm looking into the eyes of he who made me
And to him I am beauty beyond compare
I know, he defines me. Yeah yeah
Who are you to tell me that I am less than what I should be?
Who are you?
Who are you?
Yeah, yeah!
I don't need to listen to the list of things I should do
I won't try, no, I won't try
You don't define me
You don't define me
You don't define me
You don't define me
Who are you to tell me that I'm less than what I should be?
Who are you?
Who are you?
Yeah, yeah!
I don't need to listen to the list of things I should do
I won't try, No
I won't try
Yeah, yeah
Who are you to tell me I'm less than what I should be?
Who are you?
Who are you..?
Yeah, yeah!
I don't need to listen to the list of the things I should do
I won't try, no, I won't try
I think this song could do wonders for anyone struggling with self image issues, because its true. No mirror can define anyone, only you can define yourself. Everyone is beautiful, period.
To sum up this blog, that is way longer and not quite was I was going for, I send my heart, love, and prayers to anyone who is out in this world and feels worthless or unloved. No one deserves to feel like that or to be treated like that. Every single person matters and I wish I could tell that to anyone who feels that way. I wish I could help anyone struggling to just make it through the day. And to be honest, it would help me. Help me see that even if I complain about things that are happening in my life... I have a place to call home. I have a family that loves me. I have so many things I take for granted... and I wish I could share all of that with anyone who doesn't.
So thank you to Sapphire for writing the book Push, and thank you to Lee Daniels for directing the movie. You guys have really opened my eyes and inspired me to be something great. Thank You.
Okay,
Good night :]
<33 Amber
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
A little late, but here it is!
Hey guys, sorry I havent blogged in a while... I wrote one a word document like two weeks ago when i didnt have internet, and here it is :]
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Jan 11, 2010
Alrighty world…. Well today was my first day of classes…. It went pretty damn good ide say. I really like both my instructors so far… they are really funny and just idk wayyyy different than high school teachers. In my math class we just talked about what to expect out of this course and what things we’ll need…. Which kinda sucked for me cuz I need to buy more shit with money I don’t have… :[! But other then that math seems pretty dope… I don’t even have that class next week soooo that makes me smile reallllll big! Lol… k anyways then after math I had a pretty long break so I went to lunch. We have a café here that’s all you can eat and it has everything from Asian cuisine, to pizza, to sandwiches, to chicken, so salads… lol I think you get the point… any way the food is amazing (haha the fat kid in me is coming out!) Anyway I had my lunch there and talked to peesh on the phone and texted with my sis a bit then walked back to my dorm and just kicked it. I played my guitar and what not cuz I still had two hours until my next class…. Then I went to my next class…. WHICH I TOTALLY LOVE! <3!! It teaches you the story behind classical music which may sound boring as hell but its really interesting and I like it… other than the fact that I still have to buy crap for that class too…. Ugh money sucks. Anyway once that class let out I came back to my dorm only to find out that my friend needed her Ethernet cable back soooo……….I HAVE NO INTERNET! Lol im currently typing this on a word document and I’ll copy n paste it once I have the internet again lol… yeah sooo then I went for dinner…. I got some frozen sandwich thing a some chex mix…. Dinner of champs. LOL anywayyyyyyyyyyyy im insanely borrrredd but theres not much to do even when u have someone to kick it with soo that’s annoying and soorrrryyyy for typing this like its to my journal but since im typing it in word that’s just what it feels like I should type it as…. And a billion sorry its theres alota typeos lol I just don’t feel like fixing them….okay well…. Im gunna try to find something else to do to entertain myself….. Bye!
<3 Amber
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Well, haha i just re-read that andddd not too much has changed. Excpet! There is things to do when your chillin with someone, all the stuff i had to buy worked out basically... andddd um yepp. I really like all of the instructors i have. My english teacher is a nut and it makes class fun, my western culture teacher is spacey but he has alot of good theories. and my intro to education teacher is old and tells stories the whole 2 hours and 45 mins soooo its good in my book lol. Yeah, i think thats all i got right now.... :]
<3 Amberrrrrrrrr
OH, P.S
Im not really obsessed with that cafe anymore...
theres not that much variety when u go there everyday lol.
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Jan 11, 2010
Alrighty world…. Well today was my first day of classes…. It went pretty damn good ide say. I really like both my instructors so far… they are really funny and just idk wayyyy different than high school teachers. In my math class we just talked about what to expect out of this course and what things we’ll need…. Which kinda sucked for me cuz I need to buy more shit with money I don’t have… :[! But other then that math seems pretty dope… I don’t even have that class next week soooo that makes me smile reallllll big! Lol… k anyways then after math I had a pretty long break so I went to lunch. We have a café here that’s all you can eat and it has everything from Asian cuisine, to pizza, to sandwiches, to chicken, so salads… lol I think you get the point… any way the food is amazing (haha the fat kid in me is coming out!) Anyway I had my lunch there and talked to peesh on the phone and texted with my sis a bit then walked back to my dorm and just kicked it. I played my guitar and what not cuz I still had two hours until my next class…. Then I went to my next class…. WHICH I TOTALLY LOVE! <3!! It teaches you the story behind classical music which may sound boring as hell but its really interesting and I like it… other than the fact that I still have to buy crap for that class too…. Ugh money sucks. Anyway once that class let out I came back to my dorm only to find out that my friend needed her Ethernet cable back soooo……….I HAVE NO INTERNET! Lol im currently typing this on a word document and I’ll copy n paste it once I have the internet again lol… yeah sooo then I went for dinner…. I got some frozen sandwich thing a some chex mix…. Dinner of champs. LOL anywayyyyyyyyyyyy im insanely borrrredd but theres not much to do even when u have someone to kick it with soo that’s annoying and soorrrryyyy for typing this like its to my journal but since im typing it in word that’s just what it feels like I should type it as…. And a billion sorry its theres alota typeos lol I just don’t feel like fixing them….okay well…. Im gunna try to find something else to do to entertain myself….. Bye!
<3 Amber
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Well, haha i just re-read that andddd not too much has changed. Excpet! There is things to do when your chillin with someone, all the stuff i had to buy worked out basically... andddd um yepp. I really like all of the instructors i have. My english teacher is a nut and it makes class fun, my western culture teacher is spacey but he has alot of good theories. and my intro to education teacher is old and tells stories the whole 2 hours and 45 mins soooo its good in my book lol. Yeah, i think thats all i got right now.... :]
<3 Amberrrrrrrrr
OH, P.S
Im not really obsessed with that cafe anymore...
theres not that much variety when u go there everyday lol.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Hey College, I like you. ;)
Hello World!
Today is a good day. I moved into my dorm yesterday and so far i really like it. i get my own room which is great cuz i can play the music i want hang whatever pics or posters i want and just idk its a nice change from always sharing a room. :] In about 20 minutes my friend and i are going to see This Is It the Michael Jackson movie... its playing in our movie theater here on campus and its free so why not? Haha yeahh and tonight we are supposed to chill with some other people butttttttt we dont have their numbers soo not sure how thats gunna go lol.
This campus is really nice, very big and very green... a nice change from the constant snow covered ground back home lol. I mean dont get me wrong i LOVE the snow.... but its gets a little old after Christmas lmao. There are a lot of buildings that i dont even know yet but its all good... ill get used to them all soon enough.
Right now im pretty sure someone is either moving in next to me or above me but they are making alot of noise and its quite annoying lol... ill get over it though... so far my building seems pretty cool.... i havent met many people yet but sunday there a mandatory floor meeting so at least ill meet other people from my floor.... yepppp!
Other than all that, monday classes start and im verrrrrrry excited! And thats when I'll write more probs.... laterr!
<3 Amberrrrr
Monday, January 4, 2010
Leaving For School Eve.
Good morning world.
I fell asleep last night having a bit of an anxiety attack. i realize going off to college is a good thing that most people my age do and that if i want to really find who I am and who I want to be that i need to go and do it... but you all have no idea how much like self confidence i lack. I really want to feel and know that I can go to college and I can do a good job and pass all my classes and not fail out... and on top of that i want to know that i wont follow people i get involved with down there i want to try and be a leader.... show people my age you dont need to celebrate things in life with alcohol and drugs.
i dont know, i am just really nervous that on my own i wont be able to make it... its been me and my whole family and all of my friends for all of my life and thats just what im used to and what i have really come to love, being alone for five months is going to be insanely difficult for me... i mean i know i will most likely make friends but none like the friends i have right here at home.
Whenever i try to get all of these mixed feelings out all i get from people is, "amber go for it." or "amber it'll be good for you... something that you should really give a try." i understand all that... i do, but i just want to be reassured that its normal to be nervous and that its okay to be scared being taken out of your normal element.
But then on the complete flip side of all that.... i really want to get outta here... like i dont know how much longer i could take my mom being crazy angry all the time and her and my dad getting into little arguments or lizzy being all upset about it and i dont know i just really need to remove myself from all the negativity here at home. I'm one of those people who is always smiling and always trying to keep others smiling, being around all of this anger makes it hard to keep people happy and i cant handle that...
Anyway, I leave tomorrow morning at 6:30am... needless to say i dont know how i really truly feel... i didnt even think id get this far. Hopefully i'll keep things updated on here and let anyone whos reading know how things turn out for me.
<3
Amber
I fell asleep last night having a bit of an anxiety attack. i realize going off to college is a good thing that most people my age do and that if i want to really find who I am and who I want to be that i need to go and do it... but you all have no idea how much like self confidence i lack. I really want to feel and know that I can go to college and I can do a good job and pass all my classes and not fail out... and on top of that i want to know that i wont follow people i get involved with down there i want to try and be a leader.... show people my age you dont need to celebrate things in life with alcohol and drugs.
i dont know, i am just really nervous that on my own i wont be able to make it... its been me and my whole family and all of my friends for all of my life and thats just what im used to and what i have really come to love, being alone for five months is going to be insanely difficult for me... i mean i know i will most likely make friends but none like the friends i have right here at home.
Whenever i try to get all of these mixed feelings out all i get from people is, "amber go for it." or "amber it'll be good for you... something that you should really give a try." i understand all that... i do, but i just want to be reassured that its normal to be nervous and that its okay to be scared being taken out of your normal element.
But then on the complete flip side of all that.... i really want to get outta here... like i dont know how much longer i could take my mom being crazy angry all the time and her and my dad getting into little arguments or lizzy being all upset about it and i dont know i just really need to remove myself from all the negativity here at home. I'm one of those people who is always smiling and always trying to keep others smiling, being around all of this anger makes it hard to keep people happy and i cant handle that...
Anyway, I leave tomorrow morning at 6:30am... needless to say i dont know how i really truly feel... i didnt even think id get this far. Hopefully i'll keep things updated on here and let anyone whos reading know how things turn out for me.
<3
Amber
Monday, December 28, 2009
"I Don't Care About Your Myspace Page!"
Bahahahaha that title is nothing relevent at all it just makes me laugh out loudly :]
Well what a long time its been, i really should blog more but i just dont... i bet if there was an app for blogging id blog all the time cuz im practically glued to my freakin iPod. Anyway, idk why but i came online and ended up here which isnt a bad thing but i just dont know what I wanted to write about.
Well, hmm I could give an update on ricky n my dad... theyre doing fantastic. Everything that is supposed to happen, is. That makes me suuuper smile! :D
Also, in 8 days.... I'll be blogging from North Carolina. Weird huh? I feel like being in college is going to make me wanna blog a lot more. Not really sure why but i just feel like im one of those people who turns to writing when they need to express or tell something, and i feel that way cuz i am one of those people. psh whatevs i like it that way. Sorry if this is boring to anyone reading it... aka kaycee... even tho it tells me i have a new follower... hey there :] lol.
Okay well this is boring and just not going where i wanted to it soooooooo, bye.
:]
Amber
Well what a long time its been, i really should blog more but i just dont... i bet if there was an app for blogging id blog all the time cuz im practically glued to my freakin iPod. Anyway, idk why but i came online and ended up here which isnt a bad thing but i just dont know what I wanted to write about.
Well, hmm I could give an update on ricky n my dad... theyre doing fantastic. Everything that is supposed to happen, is. That makes me suuuper smile! :D
Also, in 8 days.... I'll be blogging from North Carolina. Weird huh? I feel like being in college is going to make me wanna blog a lot more. Not really sure why but i just feel like im one of those people who turns to writing when they need to express or tell something, and i feel that way cuz i am one of those people. psh whatevs i like it that way. Sorry if this is boring to anyone reading it... aka kaycee... even tho it tells me i have a new follower... hey there :] lol.
Okay well this is boring and just not going where i wanted to it soooooooo, bye.
:]
Amber
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Seems I mostly write when I'm angry.
I'm not really too angry right now... I am im not really angry in general either i guess... im just stressed and idk how to manage it.
On tueday december 1st my dad and brother under went a kidney transplant operation. My dads kidneys suck basically and my brothers are really great and he was a match. So that day and the build up to it was incredibly nerve racking.
The day before I was angry/sad that whole day and I was gving everyone atitude and I'm pretty sure it had to do with the next day but idk, like I didnt even know until that moment that I was nervous at all and then once i did... the angry and sad feelings went away and i was my normal self agian.
Then, tuesday morning came and my sister and i sent jimmy off to school then headed to the hospital. It wasnt until we were walking to the enternce that it all kinda hit me. Lizzy ran back to the car to grab something and i was left on the sidewalk to just stand and think and i thought about how they are litterally taking a kidney out of my brother and that it will be like empty there after. And then i started thinking about the way to clean smell that every hospital has and then lizzy came back and i tired to tell her was was going on in my head and she like... just stop thnking about it. So i did and i was fine like three mins after we walked in the doors. The rest of that day i was me... i was laughing, i was jokin around.... it was like everything was normal. Of course getting news that everything went perfect helped out alot.
The next day sucked quite a bit...
My mom wanted to sleep in, because the day before she was up at 430 am... so lizzy and i said we'd get jimmy up. However... the night before we didnt go to bed until like 3am... sooo heres where it starts to suck. I had my alarm set for 545, but i got woken up at 445 because i heard jimmy up laughing and chattering... so i laid him back down and covered him up and then fell back asleep for about 10 mins when all of a sudden he has a seizure. I was hoping it was only that one and that he'd be okay by the time he had to get up for school that ways lizzy my mom and i could all go see my dad and brother (because the nigt before we only saw them for like 10 mins and they were verrrrry out of it). So needless to say the siezures didnt stop... the kept going on until about 12 in the afternoon... not non stop but way too often for having had two of his pills that are supposed to stop them... anyway to put more on top of that, my nana was here for one.
I dont think she has ever seen jimmy have more then a absence seizure so when his eyes rolled back and i was stopping him from falling off the couch i think it kind of hit her heart... she just stood up and gave my mom a huge hug and said "i dont know how you do it... im so scared" she was choked up and idk i felt so bad but like all of my family has seen it so much that like we go into some sort of mode where we just know what to do and idk how to explain it... anyway he finally stopped having them and slept for most of the rest of the day.
The next day he was very groggy and just kind of stayed on the couch chillin, meanwhile my dad and ricky just kept getting better. Also this whole time the only way i was keeping in contact with my friends (who are like the biggest shoulder for me) was by texting and some five second phone calls.... i missed em alot! But the days after that things just got better and better...
Ricky came home friday afternoon and my dad came home last night... and they had a newspaper article written about them? It was cute.
And so, I am EXTREMELY happy that my dads health is increasin and that they are both doing as well as the doctors said they should and that they get to be home... but, (yes theres a but,) IT IS SO STRESSFUL!
I lost my bed because ricky needs somewhere to sleep that is not a couch. Really I am okay with that because I know he needs that. But at the same time, i am so angry and i miss the hell outta my bed. I miss being able to go in my room after work and just dive on it and lay there. I miss being able to go in my room when i want period. Also i miss knowing where things are in my room. All of the crap he brought back with him from Fort Drum is everywhere plusssss he bought a bass which in conviently in my room! I know i am 100% selfish for feeling this was but when I sleep on the couch I cant even fall asleep until other people go to bed or get off the couch and then i have to find a way to drown out the noise and it doesnt help that since i dont allow ricky to smoke in my room he has to come out here and then wake me up once i am asleep and then move my stuff and sit on one of my pillows! Sorry... haha had to vent about that... it just pissed me off so much and idk why but im just like i said before finding it hard to always be strong... like i want it to be okay for me to want my room and bed back but at the same time i dont want to because ricky neeeds that bed and i should be thankful i have somewhere to sleep at all... idk.
I am pretty okay with everything right now other than the fact my toe hurts real bad... but i am thankful to God that both my dad and brother are recovering well and that they get to be home and sleep here instead of the hospital.
However though all this... i had some songs that kept me sane and reminded my to be thankful of the life i have and all that good stuff :]
We Live -Superchick
Stand In The Rain -Superchick
Looking Up -Paramore
Turn it Off -Paramore
Psalm 73 (my Gods enough) -BarlowGirl
Stay With Me -BarlowGirl
Keep Quiet -BarlowGirl
Lost -Katy Perry
Haha i just realized those are all female artist... whatevs :]
Alright i think im done now... i know ur smiling on the inside.
Thanks to anyone who read this!
Til next time yo...
<3 Amberrrrrrr
On tueday december 1st my dad and brother under went a kidney transplant operation. My dads kidneys suck basically and my brothers are really great and he was a match. So that day and the build up to it was incredibly nerve racking.
The day before I was angry/sad that whole day and I was gving everyone atitude and I'm pretty sure it had to do with the next day but idk, like I didnt even know until that moment that I was nervous at all and then once i did... the angry and sad feelings went away and i was my normal self agian.
Then, tuesday morning came and my sister and i sent jimmy off to school then headed to the hospital. It wasnt until we were walking to the enternce that it all kinda hit me. Lizzy ran back to the car to grab something and i was left on the sidewalk to just stand and think and i thought about how they are litterally taking a kidney out of my brother and that it will be like empty there after. And then i started thinking about the way to clean smell that every hospital has and then lizzy came back and i tired to tell her was was going on in my head and she like... just stop thnking about it. So i did and i was fine like three mins after we walked in the doors. The rest of that day i was me... i was laughing, i was jokin around.... it was like everything was normal. Of course getting news that everything went perfect helped out alot.
The next day sucked quite a bit...
My mom wanted to sleep in, because the day before she was up at 430 am... so lizzy and i said we'd get jimmy up. However... the night before we didnt go to bed until like 3am... sooo heres where it starts to suck. I had my alarm set for 545, but i got woken up at 445 because i heard jimmy up laughing and chattering... so i laid him back down and covered him up and then fell back asleep for about 10 mins when all of a sudden he has a seizure. I was hoping it was only that one and that he'd be okay by the time he had to get up for school that ways lizzy my mom and i could all go see my dad and brother (because the nigt before we only saw them for like 10 mins and they were verrrrry out of it). So needless to say the siezures didnt stop... the kept going on until about 12 in the afternoon... not non stop but way too often for having had two of his pills that are supposed to stop them... anyway to put more on top of that, my nana was here for one.
I dont think she has ever seen jimmy have more then a absence seizure so when his eyes rolled back and i was stopping him from falling off the couch i think it kind of hit her heart... she just stood up and gave my mom a huge hug and said "i dont know how you do it... im so scared" she was choked up and idk i felt so bad but like all of my family has seen it so much that like we go into some sort of mode where we just know what to do and idk how to explain it... anyway he finally stopped having them and slept for most of the rest of the day.
The next day he was very groggy and just kind of stayed on the couch chillin, meanwhile my dad and ricky just kept getting better. Also this whole time the only way i was keeping in contact with my friends (who are like the biggest shoulder for me) was by texting and some five second phone calls.... i missed em alot! But the days after that things just got better and better...
Ricky came home friday afternoon and my dad came home last night... and they had a newspaper article written about them? It was cute.
And so, I am EXTREMELY happy that my dads health is increasin and that they are both doing as well as the doctors said they should and that they get to be home... but, (yes theres a but,) IT IS SO STRESSFUL!
I lost my bed because ricky needs somewhere to sleep that is not a couch. Really I am okay with that because I know he needs that. But at the same time, i am so angry and i miss the hell outta my bed. I miss being able to go in my room after work and just dive on it and lay there. I miss being able to go in my room when i want period. Also i miss knowing where things are in my room. All of the crap he brought back with him from Fort Drum is everywhere plusssss he bought a bass which in conviently in my room! I know i am 100% selfish for feeling this was but when I sleep on the couch I cant even fall asleep until other people go to bed or get off the couch and then i have to find a way to drown out the noise and it doesnt help that since i dont allow ricky to smoke in my room he has to come out here and then wake me up once i am asleep and then move my stuff and sit on one of my pillows! Sorry... haha had to vent about that... it just pissed me off so much and idk why but im just like i said before finding it hard to always be strong... like i want it to be okay for me to want my room and bed back but at the same time i dont want to because ricky neeeds that bed and i should be thankful i have somewhere to sleep at all... idk.
I am pretty okay with everything right now other than the fact my toe hurts real bad... but i am thankful to God that both my dad and brother are recovering well and that they get to be home and sleep here instead of the hospital.
However though all this... i had some songs that kept me sane and reminded my to be thankful of the life i have and all that good stuff :]
We Live -Superchick
Stand In The Rain -Superchick
Looking Up -Paramore
Turn it Off -Paramore
Psalm 73 (my Gods enough) -BarlowGirl
Stay With Me -BarlowGirl
Keep Quiet -BarlowGirl
Lost -Katy Perry
Haha i just realized those are all female artist... whatevs :]
Alright i think im done now... i know ur smiling on the inside.
Thanks to anyone who read this!
Til next time yo...
<3 Amberrrrrrr
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Thank goodness for friends and BarlowGirl
"Hey. Hi! Hey! Hey!" -Beka Hardt
So basically... the only other time i wrote about BarlowGirl it was kinda about how like i didnt know too much about them but i was looking forward to the concert and blah blah blah... but since then, haha oh man has that changed!
So things started to get crazy in my house around the begining of October if yall remember from my last (i think) blog. Well... when I said thank God i have great music to get me through it all.... yeah that great music was the lovely rockin music of BarlowGirl. Basically listening to their music helped me remember that God is always with me and that I can trust him even if things arnt going super in life. And idk really one song in particular helped me alot and that was Never Alone. Just sayin.... go youtube it :] There is a line in there that really had me thinking the most and really made me realize God and I are always connected even if i had slipped away for a while, he was still there. (We cannot seperate, 'cause you're part of me. And though you're invisable I'll trust the unseen.) Yeah, soo happy they wrote that song... i dont really think im doing a great job of explaining what im trying to but whatever i know how they helped me and just yeah :]
So on November 7th of 2009... the best day of my life occured.
At noon I went to my friends house who I was going to the concert with and we wrote all over her van windows to show how much we love BarlowGirl and were uber pumped for the concert. The back windshild said "Honk if you <3 BarlowGirl" remember that lol.
So the drive down to MA was about like 3 hours. It was a fantastic ride because everyone in the van is friggen awsome and we had Barlow blasted almost the whole time lol.
Once we go there we waited in line outside the venue and we were near the front and that was pretty sweet and to make it ever more sweet... we had VIP passes and got the very very front row. We got to do a QA with three memembers of Superchic[k] (Matt, Tricia, and Melissa). Then the Barlows came out for their QA. I totally wanted to ask them what their fav iPhone app was but i didnt haha. After that we were first in line for the meet and greet photo, and Lauren asked Kc if we were the ones with the car with the writing on it... we totally were. I had never really done anything like this before so i kind just didnt know where to go and ended up at the end with Tricia and Melissa which really isnt bad, theyre awsome... lol but i wanted to be near Becca! haha.
So then the concert started.... and you know what? I found out i pretty much love being so close at a concert that i can lean on the stage haha. Vota was on first and they were friggen awsome... i got to scream into the mic, it was super cool! Then Superchick came on anddd they put on a friggen amazingly awsome show. Dave and Matt were going nuts and it totally just blew me away just so cool. At one point Tricia was walking around on stage and i had set my phone down on there and she came over and almost stepped on it lol... but thank goodness she did hahah. After them came BarlowGirl!
Honestly..... saying yes to that concert was the best thing ever. They put on an amazing show and i just love them! They opened with Come Alive.... and the crowd totally did haha. Then they played Avarage Girl and check out this pic I got of Lauren....
Pretty amazing right? haha
So then Lauren went on her drums and Becca and Alyssa had some pretty great speachs and they rocked out like crazy! Lauren got off the drums at an other point to prefrom Our Worlds Collide acousticlly and then she read from her Bible and gave a friggen awsomely amazing speech and then they went into Million Voices. OMGEEEE! Talk about having a crazy awsome rock show two feet infront of your face! I gotta hand it to them.... Lauren had an amazing voice while jamming on the drums... alyssa was jamming like crazy on her bass.. and Becca totally KILLED IT! She didnt like jump around alot until that song and just it was the best thing i had ever seen in my life!
Then they sang Open Heavens which I love alot and im pretty sure by then I had no voice left to sing along with lol but I still tired haha. Once that song was over they had the whole front row take a few steps back and invited some of their volenteres/crew up to be there for anyone who wanted or needed to pray and Alyssa was talking about alot of things that I took to heart and I just love her lol.
So after that was all over we got in line to meet them! Honestly that was sooo coooool! Like they are so down to earth and nice and funny and you can tell they really apreciate their fans. They were all looking at the WOOT sign Kc and I had made and then Lauren was like "You guys were the one with the car right? Guys they're the ones who had the car that said Honk if You Love BarlowGirl" and Becca and Alyssa thought it was awsome and Lauren took pics with it lol and Alyssa said we'd get tweeted but we havnt yet lol. Its cool though theyre busy girls. Also before all that we got a pic with Beka Hardt who i freaking just love cuz she prolly the funniest person on the face of this earth lol. She also signed the poster but she asked if she could and Becca was like "Beka, it says 'we heart Beka Hardt." And idk why but it makes me chuckle! (BTW to see a vid of any of these things check out JMBfan83's youtube page!) Yeah and then after meeting them we got to meet four members of Superchick, Tricia had already left. Then we met the lead singer of Vota nd talked with him for a bit. Then we wanted to go back to Barlow but they were being sang to lol and we didnt want to interupt so thats when we left for the ride home only.....
On the way to the van we saw a lady walking a super cute little tiny dog and it was little Penny Lane and Mrs. Barlow walking her. That was pretty cool to pet Penny cuz shes sooo cutte!!!!
Then on the ride home and until today we talk about how awsome Saturday was and basically I am sooo stoked for the next time!!!!!!!
So basically... the only other time i wrote about BarlowGirl it was kinda about how like i didnt know too much about them but i was looking forward to the concert and blah blah blah... but since then, haha oh man has that changed!
So things started to get crazy in my house around the begining of October if yall remember from my last (i think) blog. Well... when I said thank God i have great music to get me through it all.... yeah that great music was the lovely rockin music of BarlowGirl. Basically listening to their music helped me remember that God is always with me and that I can trust him even if things arnt going super in life. And idk really one song in particular helped me alot and that was Never Alone. Just sayin.... go youtube it :] There is a line in there that really had me thinking the most and really made me realize God and I are always connected even if i had slipped away for a while, he was still there. (We cannot seperate, 'cause you're part of me. And though you're invisable I'll trust the unseen.) Yeah, soo happy they wrote that song... i dont really think im doing a great job of explaining what im trying to but whatever i know how they helped me and just yeah :]
So on November 7th of 2009... the best day of my life occured.
At noon I went to my friends house who I was going to the concert with and we wrote all over her van windows to show how much we love BarlowGirl and were uber pumped for the concert. The back windshild said "Honk if you <3 BarlowGirl" remember that lol.
So the drive down to MA was about like 3 hours. It was a fantastic ride because everyone in the van is friggen awsome and we had Barlow blasted almost the whole time lol.
Once we go there we waited in line outside the venue and we were near the front and that was pretty sweet and to make it ever more sweet... we had VIP passes and got the very very front row. We got to do a QA with three memembers of Superchic[k] (Matt, Tricia, and Melissa). Then the Barlows came out for their QA. I totally wanted to ask them what their fav iPhone app was but i didnt haha. After that we were first in line for the meet and greet photo, and Lauren asked Kc if we were the ones with the car with the writing on it... we totally were. I had never really done anything like this before so i kind just didnt know where to go and ended up at the end with Tricia and Melissa which really isnt bad, theyre awsome... lol but i wanted to be near Becca! haha.
So then the concert started.... and you know what? I found out i pretty much love being so close at a concert that i can lean on the stage haha. Vota was on first and they were friggen awsome... i got to scream into the mic, it was super cool! Then Superchick came on anddd they put on a friggen amazingly awsome show. Dave and Matt were going nuts and it totally just blew me away just so cool. At one point Tricia was walking around on stage and i had set my phone down on there and she came over and almost stepped on it lol... but thank goodness she did hahah. After them came BarlowGirl!
Honestly..... saying yes to that concert was the best thing ever. They put on an amazing show and i just love them! They opened with Come Alive.... and the crowd totally did haha. Then they played Avarage Girl and check out this pic I got of Lauren....
Pretty amazing right? haha
So then Lauren went on her drums and Becca and Alyssa had some pretty great speachs and they rocked out like crazy! Lauren got off the drums at an other point to prefrom Our Worlds Collide acousticlly and then she read from her Bible and gave a friggen awsomely amazing speech and then they went into Million Voices. OMGEEEE! Talk about having a crazy awsome rock show two feet infront of your face! I gotta hand it to them.... Lauren had an amazing voice while jamming on the drums... alyssa was jamming like crazy on her bass.. and Becca totally KILLED IT! She didnt like jump around alot until that song and just it was the best thing i had ever seen in my life!
Then they sang Open Heavens which I love alot and im pretty sure by then I had no voice left to sing along with lol but I still tired haha. Once that song was over they had the whole front row take a few steps back and invited some of their volenteres/crew up to be there for anyone who wanted or needed to pray and Alyssa was talking about alot of things that I took to heart and I just love her lol.
So after that was all over we got in line to meet them! Honestly that was sooo coooool! Like they are so down to earth and nice and funny and you can tell they really apreciate their fans. They were all looking at the WOOT sign Kc and I had made and then Lauren was like "You guys were the one with the car right? Guys they're the ones who had the car that said Honk if You Love BarlowGirl" and Becca and Alyssa thought it was awsome and Lauren took pics with it lol and Alyssa said we'd get tweeted but we havnt yet lol. Its cool though theyre busy girls. Also before all that we got a pic with Beka Hardt who i freaking just love cuz she prolly the funniest person on the face of this earth lol. She also signed the poster but she asked if she could and Becca was like "Beka, it says 'we heart Beka Hardt." And idk why but it makes me chuckle! (BTW to see a vid of any of these things check out JMBfan83's youtube page!) Yeah and then after meeting them we got to meet four members of Superchick, Tricia had already left. Then we met the lead singer of Vota nd talked with him for a bit. Then we wanted to go back to Barlow but they were being sang to lol and we didnt want to interupt so thats when we left for the ride home only.....
On the way to the van we saw a lady walking a super cute little tiny dog and it was little Penny Lane and Mrs. Barlow walking her. That was pretty cool to pet Penny cuz shes sooo cutte!!!!
Then on the ride home and until today we talk about how awsome Saturday was and basically I am sooo stoked for the next time!!!!!!!
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